Wednesday, November 4, 2009

To be or not to be

I m hitting the blog scene after such a long time, feels like coming home after a long tour!! I was just looking at some of my old college albums last week & it felt as another life.... I was a strong advocate of the fact, that changes in life do not distance one's loved ones.. But somehow, changes in mine, came like a tornado and swept me off my feet (in a good way ofcourse)! Sometimes, we walk so fast in life, that we forget the people around us and when we look back, they are there waiting at the same place for us. It is we, who in our quest to go ahead, forget to look around. I am "old school of thoughts" girl!! For me, changes are very difficult to adapt. From my bed linen to my office circle, familiarity is my key word. I feel very uncomfortable trying new things. It takes a lot of self persuasion to even try reading a book of an unknown author. I like to live in a shell, my own comfortable, warm and familiar cocoon. And that is one of the reasons, that changes in my life unnerved me a lot.

Yesterday, finally I took a step to bring in the flavor of my old life in this changed haven. I met my friends from college, people from whom I walked away due to some differences in opinion. And guess what, after a long time, I had such a wonderful time. The long chats, the fun and frolic, the comments, the fun punches... Man, I never realized what I had missed. I always tend to run away from confrontations. When I make a mistake & I realize I have hurt a loved one, I prefer staying away from them so as to not hurt them anymore than try and confront the situation head-on. Maybe I lose a lot out in this process of not hurting; I end up damaging much more than emotions....

So here's a new day, with a new change!! Cheers!