Cancerians, are a peculiar species in the human race. We never let people come near us, we are secretive, moody and suspicious. But when someone touches our heart, and passes through the grand gates and makes their place in our lives, we make sure that they never leave. By nature, we are crabby, we never let go of our friends. And when they do it tears us apart from inside.
I had sworn, that I will keep my work life away from my personal life. No friendships here, was my principle when I joined my new job. Experiences of the past had nevertheless, made me strong enough to be like this. After all, I had a pathetic time, leaving my previous work place. But nah, its me and if I make rules, they have to be broken, within a month of joining here, I had a frivolous gang, complete with fun, laughter and madness. With them, I never realized how time, passed by, it is 6 months now and life is still so fresh. We all looked forward to coming to work everyday, meet each other at breakfast, so that we could laugh away to glory. Laughing was like a religion here!!
But now time to part has come, time when we all disperse into new worlds. The most difficult moment, ever faced by a cancerian is to say “Good bye”.. And in all these years, I have never perfected this art. I can never say “Good bye”!! It is too difficult for me. I would rather not be there on their last day at work, than watch them walking out of that gate and waving at me. If life gives me a chance, then I would never let anyone walk away. If only I could turn the wheels of time again!!
Dear friend, if you are reading this, then all I want to say is you have changed my life in so many ways, and that I would never want us to part ever. But as they say, Time and Tide waits for none. So as you walk out of this door into a world of oppurtunities, know that, I would never wave good bye to you ever. I would just say “Till we meet again”!!!
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
A pinch of innocence
Since childhood, every essay we wrote on India, had one line for sure, “India is a land of villages”. I often used to wonder what it would be like to live in a village, away from the concrete jungle, not worried about the 8:06 local, not bothered about the crowds, a world where Gucci and Reebok would sound as alien as Saturn’s rings. What is it, that these people possess, that keeps them happy even in a life of hardships. Life had a turn waiting for me, while I travelled from Pune to Solapur in a bus recently.
It was an extremely hot afternoon, and as the temperature soared higher, there was mercury rising in people’s hearts too, after all, because of a silly mistake of mine, we were travelling by a non-AC bus on a hot afternoon after missing a comfortable, posh AC train. :P After glaring at me for a long time, my friend slept off, and as I waited for my guilt pangs to surpass, I kept staring out of the window. We passed through several barren lands, withered away shrubs, in the extreme heat, nothing scenic to watch, but still better than the rattle on the TV being shown. I was just thinking about how the heat was affecting this part of the city, when I saw a beautiful banyan tree and children playing swing on its branches, there was a small stream of water flowing nearby, and even in the hot sun, I could feel its chilled gurgle. I smiled at the thought of playing with these kids, it was then that I remembered a line again from school , which I would never forget, “Darwin’s theory of survival of the fittest”.
Life doesn’t stop smiling or gifting you with its treasures if a certain amount of leisure is stolen away and it is a lesson I learnt on a hot Monday afternoon! It doesn’t matter if you don’t have a washing machine to wash your pile load, but you do get the pleasure of playing with your friends in the water as you wash. It doesn’t matter if you cant watch the latest movie on your television, as long as you get to spend evenings swinging and laughing with your friends. They don’t care about a dinner at a five star hotel, trying low calorie dessert, the meal which is shared with your loved ones, no matter how meagre, is the tastiest.
Life doesn’t stop with hardships, if it steals a handful of happiness then it returns the same amount in another form, I was jealous of those villagers. Even in their life of hardships, their smile was genuine, the happiness in their laugh was evident, and when they hugged their loved ones, it was genuine. We have grudges in our hearts, envy in our relationships and trust is a emotion unknown!!
If only we had more time to analyse life and sort it in a simpler way, if only in our recipe of life, there was a pinch of innocence!!
It was an extremely hot afternoon, and as the temperature soared higher, there was mercury rising in people’s hearts too, after all, because of a silly mistake of mine, we were travelling by a non-AC bus on a hot afternoon after missing a comfortable, posh AC train. :P After glaring at me for a long time, my friend slept off, and as I waited for my guilt pangs to surpass, I kept staring out of the window. We passed through several barren lands, withered away shrubs, in the extreme heat, nothing scenic to watch, but still better than the rattle on the TV being shown. I was just thinking about how the heat was affecting this part of the city, when I saw a beautiful banyan tree and children playing swing on its branches, there was a small stream of water flowing nearby, and even in the hot sun, I could feel its chilled gurgle. I smiled at the thought of playing with these kids, it was then that I remembered a line again from school , which I would never forget, “Darwin’s theory of survival of the fittest”.
Life doesn’t stop smiling or gifting you with its treasures if a certain amount of leisure is stolen away and it is a lesson I learnt on a hot Monday afternoon! It doesn’t matter if you don’t have a washing machine to wash your pile load, but you do get the pleasure of playing with your friends in the water as you wash. It doesn’t matter if you cant watch the latest movie on your television, as long as you get to spend evenings swinging and laughing with your friends. They don’t care about a dinner at a five star hotel, trying low calorie dessert, the meal which is shared with your loved ones, no matter how meagre, is the tastiest.
Life doesn’t stop with hardships, if it steals a handful of happiness then it returns the same amount in another form, I was jealous of those villagers. Even in their life of hardships, their smile was genuine, the happiness in their laugh was evident, and when they hugged their loved ones, it was genuine. We have grudges in our hearts, envy in our relationships and trust is a emotion unknown!!
If only we had more time to analyse life and sort it in a simpler way, if only in our recipe of life, there was a pinch of innocence!!
Monday, May 17, 2010
Blinding Joy
Love struck me once, and I went blind
They say it hits hard, when it does, the earth beneath your feet slips away,
I had grown up listening to this, I would dream of the moment,
When love would come and blast my way,
Years I had waited for my true love to come,
A moment I waited to rejoice and bloom,
And then it came, like the sun setting down the ocean,
As if the entire waters, were covered with a golden potion,
He was smart, yet different, than the others of his kind,
He came, he conquered and won away my mind,
I blushed when I saw him for the first time,
Prayed away “Oh Lord! Please let him be mine”
And the Lord smiled and said “My child”
May not thy, love blow away like the wind; behold,
But blind I was and wanted to turn deaf,
In the colour of my new love wanted to say “Lord you are rough”
He made me dance, to the breezy winds,
Spread my colour and my fragrance around,
All at once, he left one day,
With a promise to come back, just like a fay
Days passed away like years,
Seasons changed then changed near and dears,
I had lost my heart to him,
Now there was absolutely no whim,
Life was just a menace, awaiting death furlong,
I held my loved ones and bid goodbye, so long,
He took away not just my nectar but my essence of life,
Oh, all I wanted to be was his dearest wife!!
Then I heard the voice, to whom I turned deaf,
He came and comforted said now now, don’t be so tough,
You are but a flower who blooms so beautiful,
And he a bumbling bee, fickle and temptous,
Life is agame of nectar and poison,
Have a balance, don’t try and find the reason
I am with you my child as you fade away,
But don’t let your love so easily blown away.
As I lay down and closed my eyes,
The sun bowed down and soothing as ice,
Tears trickled down, my eyes,
Alas! I could have still been wise!
They say it hits hard, when it does, the earth beneath your feet slips away,
I had grown up listening to this, I would dream of the moment,
When love would come and blast my way,
Years I had waited for my true love to come,
A moment I waited to rejoice and bloom,
And then it came, like the sun setting down the ocean,
As if the entire waters, were covered with a golden potion,
He was smart, yet different, than the others of his kind,
He came, he conquered and won away my mind,
I blushed when I saw him for the first time,
Prayed away “Oh Lord! Please let him be mine”
And the Lord smiled and said “My child”
May not thy, love blow away like the wind; behold,
But blind I was and wanted to turn deaf,
In the colour of my new love wanted to say “Lord you are rough”
He made me dance, to the breezy winds,
Spread my colour and my fragrance around,
All at once, he left one day,
With a promise to come back, just like a fay
Days passed away like years,
Seasons changed then changed near and dears,
I had lost my heart to him,
Now there was absolutely no whim,
Life was just a menace, awaiting death furlong,
I held my loved ones and bid goodbye, so long,
He took away not just my nectar but my essence of life,
Oh, all I wanted to be was his dearest wife!!
Then I heard the voice, to whom I turned deaf,
He came and comforted said now now, don’t be so tough,
You are but a flower who blooms so beautiful,
And he a bumbling bee, fickle and temptous,
Life is agame of nectar and poison,
Have a balance, don’t try and find the reason
I am with you my child as you fade away,
But don’t let your love so easily blown away.
As I lay down and closed my eyes,
The sun bowed down and soothing as ice,
Tears trickled down, my eyes,
Alas! I could have still been wise!
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Alt+F4
This is the longest tenure of my life, where I haven’t penned anything so long, have just read 4 books in 6 months! Sigh! Life and its compulsions, kills all chances of leading a normal human life.
These 6 months and the past 2 days have taught me quite a good lesson, that life once on a acceleration mode, doesn’t take a back seat ever. In this race to live, we end up losing a lot than just a good mileage power!!
These 6 months, owing to work pressure I completely convinced myself that, hobbies and passions do not necessarily relax a person, it is just a technique of keeping your mind occupied or to put it in Bollywood ishtyle “All izz well”. But now as the weariness and tiredness sets in, a huge lethargic wave seems to be groping my mind. I can’t think & talk of anything but work. With this rate, I would soon replace the system I work on.. :)
My friends have a hand in this transition from machine to human, after all, they were the ones who pushed me hard to write something and keep penning my thoughts. While I say that, a huge thanks to my darling cousin, who introduced me to this wonderful world of blogging. A push in the right direction, sometimes sets us back on the right track, and I am lucky, I have had a lot of people to show me the right path so many times.
When I hang on to something, it is hard for me to unhook myself and let my thoughts flow in a different direction, and now that I know the side effects, it is about time to reprogram a few prejudices.. So while I take a whiff of my new found freedom and take a long breath in fresh air, may the PC back at my desk, finally sigh a relief “Hush! Alt+F4 at last” :):)
These 6 months and the past 2 days have taught me quite a good lesson, that life once on a acceleration mode, doesn’t take a back seat ever. In this race to live, we end up losing a lot than just a good mileage power!!
These 6 months, owing to work pressure I completely convinced myself that, hobbies and passions do not necessarily relax a person, it is just a technique of keeping your mind occupied or to put it in Bollywood ishtyle “All izz well”. But now as the weariness and tiredness sets in, a huge lethargic wave seems to be groping my mind. I can’t think & talk of anything but work. With this rate, I would soon replace the system I work on.. :)
My friends have a hand in this transition from machine to human, after all, they were the ones who pushed me hard to write something and keep penning my thoughts. While I say that, a huge thanks to my darling cousin, who introduced me to this wonderful world of blogging. A push in the right direction, sometimes sets us back on the right track, and I am lucky, I have had a lot of people to show me the right path so many times.
When I hang on to something, it is hard for me to unhook myself and let my thoughts flow in a different direction, and now that I know the side effects, it is about time to reprogram a few prejudices.. So while I take a whiff of my new found freedom and take a long breath in fresh air, may the PC back at my desk, finally sigh a relief “Hush! Alt+F4 at last” :):)
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