I have been totally restless today. I earlier thought, maybe its just a bout of excitement, but later realised, excitement would lead in some direction, I would need a spark, but nah, m just restless. This has started happening often to me these days. I am unable to concentrate and take a slow and steady move. The tsunami of emotions in my heart is just so overwhelming, that dissecting it into a certain genre is proving to be a mammoth task. So I set upon doing the one thing that slows me and sends me back to the raging reality of life, that is, blogging! My mind today, just doesnt want to slow down. I realised this early in the morning when I sat in front of my altar to say good morning , to my lord, and loh behold, I was streaming through a live video of thoughts. From a friend's anguish to argentina's football game, everything flashed. It felt like one of those tests, from Engineering, where u are shown a string of photos and asked to write an essay... :P
Human mind is the most mysterious creation of the lord, it is fast,it is crazy, and it is utterly unpredictable. There is just no chance, one would be able to decipher, what the next move would be. Sometimes, I feel m scared to be alone, coz of my train of thoughts. The mere speed scares me. I wanna slow down , mellow down and say, enough! Stop thinking for a while. I want to close my eyes and stare at a blank screen!!! My doc says, m over charged at the moment and need to take a vacation, at that moment, all I could remember was "makemytrip.com"... sad, but thats the way it is...
My brain starts playing songs when I am in the conference room, I cannot signoff from office while at home, and start feeling guilty, about my indifference at home in the office...This is getting all very hyper and serious now. I really want to signoff at all instances and take some time off... But dunno from what... Is it work, is it home, is it people, or is it just plain good old me!! A question that I need to answer for myself...
All this scared me, when i took up a book for reading, and i kept it back without being able to concentrate. This is possibly the worst experience for a book worm. To be away from books!!! Huh!! I feel so good, after penning my condition. Sometimes, I feel, nothing is more closer to me, than the alphabet series of English.. I cannot speak about my issues, as well pen them down, and get relaxed!!! :)
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Saturday, June 26, 2010
Till we meet again - Part 2
Man, I guess am obsessed with the topic of goodbye.... Here's one more....
The journey of life is just so beautifully chalked by the almighty. From the tiniest bacteria to the extremely developed, the planning is just so perfect. The environment in which we grow up, our future, our thought flow, the phases in life, the break downs, the pinnacles of success, everything is set. All we need to do, is strive to execute everything in the best possible manner.
In this journey, we meet several people, who walk with us for a certain distance and then comes the time, when our lanes start differing. The discrimination, that lanes change, but people don’t, is what is the essence of nurturing relationships. I have always been a relation cherisher person. I find very hard to make friends, I take a lot of time to trust people. But once in my close circle of friends, then till the end, I never let go. That is probably why I still am as good friends with my primary school friends as my new friends. I find it very hard, to close a chapter in life. As I said earlier, I don’t believe in good byes. Distances only reduces physical proximity, the pleasure of seeing ur friend, hearing their hearty laugh, the twinkle in their eyes, what it cannot do, is kill affection, trust and emotions. Friendship is a very beautiful bond, an invisible force, which binds hearts forever. A beautiful bond of trust, affection, love and faith.
I have been very lucky, that at each stage of life, I have been blessed with wonderful people around me. People who flinch in pain, when I cry, who will paint the town red, if I win. People who would argue in a conference room, to prove me right. Life doesn’t have to be fair all the time. It doesn’t have to give us all that we desire. The trick is to remain contented and happy with what we have and make the best out of it. As a famous line goes, “Life is like a cup of coffee, sweetened but not stirred”.
We may not see each other everyday, we may not talk to each other for months, but know for sure, that like shadows, we are always there in a subtle but sure manner.
Till we meet again…….
The journey of life is just so beautifully chalked by the almighty. From the tiniest bacteria to the extremely developed, the planning is just so perfect. The environment in which we grow up, our future, our thought flow, the phases in life, the break downs, the pinnacles of success, everything is set. All we need to do, is strive to execute everything in the best possible manner.
In this journey, we meet several people, who walk with us for a certain distance and then comes the time, when our lanes start differing. The discrimination, that lanes change, but people don’t, is what is the essence of nurturing relationships. I have always been a relation cherisher person. I find very hard to make friends, I take a lot of time to trust people. But once in my close circle of friends, then till the end, I never let go. That is probably why I still am as good friends with my primary school friends as my new friends. I find it very hard, to close a chapter in life. As I said earlier, I don’t believe in good byes. Distances only reduces physical proximity, the pleasure of seeing ur friend, hearing their hearty laugh, the twinkle in their eyes, what it cannot do, is kill affection, trust and emotions. Friendship is a very beautiful bond, an invisible force, which binds hearts forever. A beautiful bond of trust, affection, love and faith.
I have been very lucky, that at each stage of life, I have been blessed with wonderful people around me. People who flinch in pain, when I cry, who will paint the town red, if I win. People who would argue in a conference room, to prove me right. Life doesn’t have to be fair all the time. It doesn’t have to give us all that we desire. The trick is to remain contented and happy with what we have and make the best out of it. As a famous line goes, “Life is like a cup of coffee, sweetened but not stirred”.
We may not see each other everyday, we may not talk to each other for months, but know for sure, that like shadows, we are always there in a subtle but sure manner.
Till we meet again…….
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