Matters of the heart

“I never ever will speak to you again”!! All my closest friends, family everyone has heard this line atleast a thousand times from me.. But within 2 or 3 hours, I am back to my chirpy self, as if nothing ever happened. That’s me…. I am not a very short tempered person, I have my share of irritations, but nothing that leads to a fight. Actually being phobic to shouting, I rather become very silent when angry. End up listening to music, read a book or write a blog… ;)
But there have been quite some times when I swear to myself, that this time, X Person has crossed their limits and there is no way, I am gonna accept them without an apology and a sound lesson. But then after a while, there is this whole, barrage of questions that is thrown at me (by my dear old conscience) starting from, is this right, am I being fair to do you think, they would be hurt!! Then I start remembering the good times, I had with them… The fun times, the laughter times…. And then starts the cross questioning…. Whether all this silence is worth, the times we spent together.. Whether it is a balance… This weighing, finally leads to a conclusion that “All’s well that ends well”!! There goes my anger down the drain!! I don’t remember holding a fight for more than half a day! Hmmm!! Hard!
This I think of actually as a strength… I don’t want to lose the people I love to such tiny fights, I don’t want a scratch in my heart, because of a couple of heated words… What I would rather have is, someday down the line, when our vision gets blurred, we have silver hair and life would seem like an autumn time, I would not like to regret, having not saved a relation!!

Micchami Dukkadam

Micchami Dukkadam, a term, which when said with folded hands, and a sincere faith in heart can move even the mountains. It is the earnest effort to pay for our sins, right here, to keep the big fat burden of ego aside and to reach every individual known and ask for forgiveness for deeds, knowingly or unknowingly done. The deed of forgiveness, crossess all the noblest and virtuest of deeds. In the very famous Shakespearen play "The Merchant of Venice", Portia says that blessed are the ones who forgive and because of th nobility of their deed, blessed also are the ones who are forgiven.

In our fast & frenzied life, we completely overlook the emotional factor, between our 9-9 jobs, there is no time, to take a note of such trivial things. And in this process, we do not realise the big and strong wall of hatred that we build in our hearts. Gone are the days, when a simple flower and a tiny sorry, could heal hearts. Now there is no effort, and people dont care anymore..

So to all my friends, family and loved ones, if I have ever hurt you, knowingly or unknowingly, crushed your emotion for my selfish needs, overlooked your smile for my own! "Micchami Dukkadam"...