Matters of the heart

“I never ever will speak to you again”!! All my closest friends, family everyone has heard this line atleast a thousand times from me.. But within 2 or 3 hours, I am back to my chirpy self, as if nothing ever happened. That’s me…. I am not a very short tempered person, I have my share of irritations, but nothing that leads to a fight. Actually being phobic to shouting, I rather become very silent when angry. End up listening to music, read a book or write a blog… ;)
But there have been quite some times when I swear to myself, that this time, X Person has crossed their limits and there is no way, I am gonna accept them without an apology and a sound lesson. But then after a while, there is this whole, barrage of questions that is thrown at me (by my dear old conscience) starting from, is this right, am I being fair to do you think, they would be hurt!! Then I start remembering the good times, I had with them… The fun times, the laughter times…. And then starts the cross questioning…. Whether all this silence is worth, the times we spent together.. Whether it is a balance… This weighing, finally leads to a conclusion that “All’s well that ends well”!! There goes my anger down the drain!! I don’t remember holding a fight for more than half a day! Hmmm!! Hard!
This I think of actually as a strength… I don’t want to lose the people I love to such tiny fights, I don’t want a scratch in my heart, because of a couple of heated words… What I would rather have is, someday down the line, when our vision gets blurred, we have silver hair and life would seem like an autumn time, I would not like to regret, having not saved a relation!!